Hill climb

I don't mind climbing a hill, the view is usually pretty good at the top and there aren't as many people up there. Right now, life is presenting a challenging climb for me and I'm having to remind myself about balance, that good and bad go together, and whatever hard times we have right now we'll just have to endure and wait for the good times to come again.

Friday I met our neighbor's son and his mother and told them that Dave had died. Bill took them downtown to the jail to get the keys to the house and into the house so they could retrieve his address book and begin notifying friends. The ex-wife that I met Friday morning had not notified them of Dave's passing and she had led me to believe that he was estranged from his son. It turns out Dave had called his son the night he died and they had made plans together and Dave told him that he was having trouble sleeping. They were concerned that Dave wasn't returning phone calls and came to Corvallis to find out if something was wrong.

Thankfully we were able to ease the transition for them and they did not find Dave the way Bill had. We were up late with them Friday and then at 5am on Saturday the alarm went off and I heard birds chirping outside, "life goes on" they were calling and even though were were exhausted by 6am we were out the door for the Canby Gator Grinder triathlon. I have recently expanded my product line to include running hats and visors and we had a decent sales day so it was worth the trip up.

Saturday evening we had dinner with the hippies and then played dominos before stumbling off to bed. Sunday AM Bill headed out to play disc golf and I went to buy him some Mother's Day doughnuts for his pre-training breakfast. Bill did a brick (bike-run workout) after disc golf and I rode with him for about 16 miles. It felt great to ride my triathlon bike for the 1st time since last August. It feels like a racing machine compared to my commuter bike.

After the ride I made pizza and then crashed on an epic 4 hour nap. Still no word on Cassie, we miss her very much and hope she finds her way home soon so we can have our family back together again. And finally, one of my fertility fears has come true, the lab tests indicate that I am not ovulating so as long as I don't have any ovarian cysts I will start on a fertility drug next cycle. There is a 90% chance that it will cause me to ovulate and a 50% chance we will conceive. I'm also afraid I might have a cyst right now so I won't be able to start the drug. We'll just take it one step at a time and hope for the best.

I'm bummed out right now but there is food in my stomach, people that love me, and we have hope that good times are coming so I think we'll make this climb.